So this week is no better than the last. The weight increases, the steps increase also (thank god), and I have now pledged to not eat snacks at all, because there is no middle ground. I have to increase my activity, and reduce my consumption of fatty foods, or the increase will keep going and I will miss my goal by more than I started with.
So far, one day in, I’m not doing too badly. I do need to remember to do the same every day, and I must be prepared for my weight to go up before it starts to go down – there is progress that can’t be immediately arrested – but I’ll get there. I’m three months in and am worse off than when I started.
So, the attempt to do more walking seems to be working in fits and starts; my number of steps per day is climbing bit by bit. Not up to jogging or couch to 5k standards, of course, but getting there, I think – provided I can maintain the momentum. The important part of that is not hitting a certain amount of steps per day, but being in that mindset where I am prepared to get up and walk around every day; whether that is with Freddie at weekends, or on my own during the week when I’m at work.
The snacking still isn’t really under control though – I’m still finding myself drawn to snacks around the office, or I’m eating later in the evening that I’m happier with. I do need to rein both of those in so the gains from walking around more start to show up.
So, another week rolls around and as per usual, there are no dramatic changes to report. Well, I wouldn’t expect there to be in a short period of a week; perhaps I have managed to arrest the slow creep upwards, but I’m not in the hurry of reversing it yet.
This is the tyranny of measuring daily and reviewing weekly – it’s only over time the trends start to show. I’ve overlaid the steps I take every day now, for a further degree of data, but to be fair these vary so wildly from one day to the next that all they appear to do is add noise.
This weekend is the challenge – Lisa is away for the whole weekend, so the desire to binge eat crap will be very strong. Will I be able to resist, even for a little while? Well, let’s wait and see. I’ll let you know next week.
So, the trend is slowly upwards as usual, and I’m trying to control it. I haven’t taken big steps yet, but I like to think I’m getting there – slowly instilling the mindfulness I need, but still encountering problems that need to be addressed.
I’ve learnt today that constantly haranguing myself doesn’t work as a mechanism for making progress. All I end up doing is loathing my failures, and then slip easily into eating crap as an escape from the grim reality of failure.
Yeah, this week hasn’t been a good one.