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44

Today I turn 44 years old. I have a lot to be thankful for. Today I’m going to simply write off the top of my head, so please forgive me if this turns into a rambling monologue about something entirely unrelated to the title - I have a habit of doing that these days.

I lay awake at ten minutes past midnight last night / this morning, cradling my son who was having difficulty sleeping. As I gently rubbed his back and listened to his tiny snores, I was quietly grateful for being in the position I am in. I have a job that I enjoy, a wife who I love dearly, and a child; I am truly a happy man. Sure, I suffer some existential angst every now and then when the outcome of a desired project is less than I expected, but even then I am grateful to be in the position where I can spend some time (and money) on bringing projects to life, even if they don’t get beyond the planning stage in 95% of cases.

And, as I woke this morning to further cuddles from Freddie - now grumbling in the mornings, too - I lay in bed again, with my wife sleeping beside me, and that feeling of happiness was concreted into place. I may have occasional grumbles myself, and I can sometimes slip into ‘moaning old man’ mode but these are fleeting.

I have friends and family around me who are happy for me and only gently take the piss out of my impending age, too. I have the chance to go and play golf - badly - occasionally, I have a little office in the garden which is an oasis in beautiful weather, even if it still needs external and internal finishing, and I have the chance to simply relax now and then.

I’ve expressed all my thanks, I think. Doubtless there are others I’ve missed who are no less appreciated for my not being able to immediately recall them. I am writing this off the top of my head, remember, and in line with the 500 words a day motto I don’t edit, I just hit publish and move on to the next day. This exercise is to encourage me to write publicly every day and ensure that what I write is at least considered, if not perfect english.

How do I move on from here? What goals will I set myself to achieve between now and my next birthday?

Well, I’d like to get at least one of my projects off the ground and in some sort of public state. I’d like to be able to point to something on the internet that receives more than passing interest and say that I made it. I have a wealth of projects currently on the go - some of which are on the back burner for the moment but still pop up in my weekly review in Omnifocus - and so I have the freedom of choice as to which way I go. One project in particular looks promising but I can’t talk about it yet until it’s at least underway.

Anyway, Happy birthday to me.